I don’t want to die with things left undone. I don’t want to drown in a bed, alone, without my loved ones able to say goodbye. I don’t want to die without one last kiss from Katie.




I don’t want to die with things left undone. I don’t want to drown in a bed, alone, without my loved ones able to say goodbye. I don’t want to die without one last kiss from Katie.






I noticed that these posts are sounding more hopeless. Unfortunately, that’s what it feels like in New York (and New Jersey) now. We realized that help is not coming from the federal government, at least not the Republicans, who shoot down every plea. They have no misgivings about letting us die. I would wish them all to suffer, but I can’t. No one should die alone, slowly drowning, not even with a chance to get on a ventilator, because there are none left. Even those that kill us with apathy should die in such a horrid way.
I’d rather history marks them for the monsters they are.
This entry has a lot about Jewishness in it, as I had to deal with hate speech on my Facebook page yesterday. Sadly, it was from another Jew.


I’m expecting to reach another 200 entries, if not more. If I live. New York is dying. Don’t fiddle while it burns.







I’m starting to get overwhelmed. Despair is setting in.



We’re doomed. Doooooomed…I think of War of the Worlds, where the aliens were wiped out by the common cold. A little thing like that can do so much damage.


Things are starting to get crazy here. I haven’t touched another human in 2 weeks. I’m an introvert, but this is a long time without human contact. I miss Katie so much.

Hoo Boy. Things are getting intense here in New York. It’s hard to keep 6 feet away in a place where you live in tiny apartments. I don’t think people realize how small they are. New Yorkers are used to having the city outside as part of their home. There’s a LOT of park and playground space because people don’t have yards. But now people aren’t just exercising in the park, they’re congregating just to have some human presence.



I’m starting to lose my wits. Meanwhile, the NYC hospitals are completely overwhelmed by the sick.
I worry for the areas of the country that don’t have the resources or inclination to fight this. “The American Way” puts freedom above all. The Human Way is to sacrifice to save others.


