Nine Months

It was nine months ago today that Valerie died.

I haven’t written anything about her in a while, though she is always on my mind. For a while, I was marking the days, then the months on Facebook. I realize that it is a pretty drama-based thing to do, so I am refraining from it this month. But I need to acknowledge it in some way, acknowledge the pain I am in and how much I love and miss her. Even as I write this, tears roll down my face and soak my shirt. I can’t stop.

Today has been a wash. I did manage to go to the gym today and get in a good 50 minute swim. It helps. I find that when I swim, I’m so focused on it that I don’t have room to think of anything else. Besides, pool water hides tears.

But once I got home, I just crawled into bed. I’ve been in the fetal position, clutching a stuffed animal that I got her when she was accepted into the Binghamton doctoral program. It was a furry dinosaur, and it actually freaked her out some. Sometimes things would just get into her head like that.

She was such a special person, and I miss her so much.

Real Life Alignment: A Pointless Voyage Into Good and Evil

I decided to take some time off of my shameless plugging in order to discuss something that is often, if not always, on my mind.

I am a nice person. I am always polite to people. I hold doors open. I compliment people for no other reason than to make them feel good. But am I a good person? There’s a difference, and being nice does not necessarily equate to being good.

I’m not saying that I am a bad person. I don’t think that there are many truly bad people in the world. There’s a current book out whose name I can’t remember. It says that one out of twenty people, 5% of the population, are sociopathic. They have no ability to feel empathy, or to act in any way other than for their own benefit. We all know at least one sociopath (I happen to know several). Not all of them are criminals or even noticeable in their sociopathy, but all of them are incurably selfish.

We are all selfish at one time or another, but that doesn’t make the person “bad.” Being selfish all of the time–being unable to be anything but selfish–that’s bad. Of course, there are other kinds of evil too. There are many normal people out there that have explosive tempers, or purposefully hurt someone to fill a need inside of them. I think these are learned traits, though, and different from sociopathic behavior. They’re just assholes.

I play a lot of roleplaying games. In D & D, they have something called “Alignment.” This is where you decide your character’s world view on an ethical (law vs chaos) and moral (good vs evil) scale. When I was younger, I used to argue with my DM that people were inherently good, and it was ethics that were variable. He countered that most people are neutral: they care about family and friends, maybe even the greater world around them, but they do little to help anyone outside their immediate circle.

I was an idealist. I am not anymore. I think that my DM is right. You can be a nice person, but unless you are taking an active stance towards improving the world, you are neutral. “Good” is reserved for heroism in RPGs, and in a lesser sense, in real life.

Because I’m a writer, and especially because I write speculative fiction, I am constantly grappling with the nature of good and evil. Song of Simon, for example. Simon begins as a “nice guy,” but an ordinary guy. He has fears, he has moments of selfishness. He makes bad decisions that come back to haunt him. Yet the novel is about him growing from a “nice person” into a “good person,” a person that will take a stand to defend what is right.

There are other characters in Song of Simon that are not quite so heroic. And there are those that appear heroic, but have done (and do) horrible things. I tried to show the variability of what is good and what is evil. Good and evil isn’t black and white. It isn’t even shades of gray. Good and evil is every color in the rainbow and every shade therein. It’s alizarin crimson and yellow ochre. It’s midnight blue and aquamarine. There are no simple answers to be found.

As for me, I’m going to make a change. I’m tired of just being a nice person. I want to be a good person. I want to help, and I’m gonna find some way to do it.

JukePop Gets a Donation Option

Hey, this is an article I wrote for The Online Novel, a great resource if you are into web fiction, especially serials. This article is about JukePop Serials (which of course, hosts The Watchmage of Old New York) and there continued commitment to making sure that writers are compensated for their work. You can find the article here

Below is an excerpt:

On October 15th, JukePop Serials issued a press release announcing the addition of a donation option for their hosted serials. This means that now authors can solicit donations from their readers. Each serial will have a donation button, along with a personalized message from the author. The minimum donation in one dollar, and goes into an Amazon account for the author, minus a small hosting fee for JukePop.

JukePop Serials, which recently celebrated its one year anniversary, has taken a progressive stance regarding author compensation from the beginning. Unlike many sites, Jukepop pays its writers upon story acceptance, and offers additional monetary incentives for story popularity.

Interview for examiner.com and a short excerpt

I’m a starting what the hep, hep, people call a “blog tour” to promote Song of Simon. My first interview was with Casey Harvell, the NY Books examiner for Examiner.com. You’ll have to forgive the formatting (examiner can be weird to format sometimes, I know from experience). Here is an excerpt:

Please welcome author Craig Sanders! C.A.Sanders is a writer of both fiction and non-fiction. His short fiction has been published in many magazines–both electronic and print–over the past 10 years. His stories span genres from literary and humor to fantasy/sci and horror. His first novel,Song of Simon, is set for release on Sept. 1st, 2013. His serial, The Watchmage of Old New York, is currently available with FREE registration at jukepopserials.com

Tell us a little bit about yourself:

That’s a tough question, I know so much stuff about myself, but not necessarily stuff I want other people to know. I’m thirty-six, a former special ed teacher, now writing full time. While I did like working special ed, it’s a very stressful, physically demanding, and occasionally messy, job. I grew up in the Bronx and then Rockland County, NY, and non-New York accents hurt my ears.

This is not something that I usually confess, but I have Bi-polar Syndrome. I take my medicine and have it under control, but it’s such a large aspect of my life that I feel it is important to share. I think that being set apart from “normal” people by this disease helps me to write from a more objective perspective. It’s up to the reader to judge if this is a good thing.

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I go on to discuss SoS and Watchmage, along with favorites, motivation, and some of the little quirks that make me the crazy bastard that I am.

How I learned to stop worrying and love the serial

I originally wrote this for the online novel blog, but I felt it was time for a repost

Where I’m Coming From

I’ve been writing professionally (or trying to write professionally) for almost fifteen years, but online serials are still new to me. When I started, the paradigm was print. Literary journals were the way to go, and they were all in paper and only taking the fanciest of the fancy. It was not an easy way to break in.

By the time that mags moved to the Internet, I was already convinced that I was awful and needed to get a real job (“get a real job” being the meanest thing that you can tell a writer), so I missed out on this initial orgy of zine activity. I got into it late, and I got in with reservations. Even now, I miss the scent of newly printed paper…sigh.

The Way We Write Now

It was last autumn. I had just finished my first novel, Song of Simon , over the Summer, and I was looking for a new project. Song of Simon is an intense novel and writing it was emotionally draining. This time I wanted to write something a bit more lighthearted.

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I guess I didn’t get out of that novel-writing state of mind. What began as a short story ballooned into a massive 16,000 word novelette, now known as The Watchmage of Old New York. I would’ve given up on it (it’s near impossible to sell something that size, and I have bills to pay), but I was having too much fun exploring the Watchmage world.

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So now I was stuck with this albatross of a story hanging around my neck. No mag would have her, certainly no paying mag (I make it a point to only sell to paying mags. That magazines will pay nothing for our work and act like we should be grateful is a crime. But that is a different story).

I use Duotrope to find markets (you should too) and that’s where I found Jukepop Serials. A paying market that takes long stories? Sign me up. It hadn’t occurred to me to serialize Watchmage, but how could I resist?

I was biased against serials, I’m ashamed to say. I was a “professional” and serials were for fan fiction. I was an idiot.

Serials are not a new paradigm, they are the old one. Charles Dickens used to write serials, so did Bradbury and Edgar Rice Burroughs. I never realized this until I immersed myself into one of my own.

Healthy, Whole Grain, Serial

If I was going to boil serial writing down to three rules (and I will), they would be these:
1)Outline everything
2)Master pacing
3)Keep a healthy buffer

Outline Everything: I believe in doing this for everything you write, even blog posts. But outlines are especially important when you’re writing a serial. Once you post an installment, it’s there forever. I feel that going back to previous entries and changing them is unfair to your readers. Make sure that what goes on that page is exactly what you want.

This includes noting the important aspects about characters, plot, and the world of the story. In Watchmage, I found that I was uncomfortable with some of the main character’s characteristics. Looking back, I would’ve written him differently (which I am doing in the novelized reboot). You can avoid my mistake with preparation.

Outlining doesn’t stop once you start writing. One of my favorite things about writing is all the interesting people, places, and things that naturally pop up as the story goes on. Make sure you add these to your notes. Don’t forget anything, because you never know what’s gonna be important a few story arcs down the line.

That said, don’t make your plot outside too rigid. Think of it more as drawing with dots, and then connecting the dots. As long as you get from plot point to plot point, it doesn’t matter how you got there.

Master Pacing: Reading online is different from reading in print. For some reason, readers will only read a certain amount before they fade out. The big complaint that I have heard is eye strain. Regardless, a good chapter in an online serial is shorter than one in a print book.

I think that 1000-1500 words is a good length for an installment. You should be able to end at the end of a scene or a cliffhanger. Don’t rely too much on either. Cliffhangers keep the reader coming back, but they get old quickly. Think “tension and release.”

The major difference between a serial and a novel is that a serial is ongoing, where a novel has a finite end. This does not, however, mean that a serial is an open-ended mess.

I grew up reading comic books and watching pro wrestling, both of which I still love. Both are great examples of serial structure. A comic might go on for decades, but it’s broken up into story arcs. A story might go on for a few months, reach its conclusion, and then move on to another arc. Wrestling is the same way. Randy Orton might be feuding with Daniel Bryan now, but in a couple of months (after Bryan does the J.O.B…wrestling fans get it) he might feud with Cody Rhodes or Fandango (yes, there is a wrestler called Fandango). This is the way that your serial should be constructed. It provides closure for the reader without ending it.

For example, Watchmage currently has two story arcs. I could easily write more, but I am rebooting it. You could read one arc and be satisfied, or you could keep going. Readers need closure. In other words: don’t get carried away by your own awesomeness.

Keep A Buffer:

Writers will argue about the length, but you should always keep a buffer of at least a few weeks. This means that you have a few weeks’ worth of story written ahead of your installments. For Watchmage, I kept an eight week buffer.

Writing is like starting a hose with your mouth: you have to do a lot of sucking before things flow. The problem is, too many serial writers post those first few sucks before they realize that they don’t fit. This is why I keep a buffer. It gives me a chance to look back and edit my work before posting it. Remember: what has been posted cannot be unposted (ok, maybe it can, but it shouldn’t).

Another reason is because life happens, and sometimes you won’t be able to hit your deadline. The buffer allows you wiggle room for when you get the flu or your dog eats a Cadbury bar.

I hope this little insight into my conversion to serial writing, and the methods to my madness, have helped. If you disagree, that’s fine too. Everyone works differently, don’t be ashamed of your own technique. Be brilliant.

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Press Release for “The Watchmage of Old New York”

Like the one I wrote for Song of Simon, here is the one for “Watchmage.”

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Press Release Announcement: The Watchmage of Old New York

Contact: C.A. Sanders, casanders77@gmail.com  www.casanders.net

 

New York Author C.A. Sanders Brings 19th Century Manhattan to Life With Steampunk Fantasy The Watchmage of Old New York

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New York native C.A. Sanders brings his city’s history to life–with a healthy dose of fantasy—in his award-winning serial, The Watchmage of Old New York.  Set in 1855, “Watchmage” follows Nathaniel Hood, a one hundred and fifty year old wizard, who is the appointed guardian and law enforcement of New York’s magical community.  This community involves fairy tale creatures—called “Dwellers”—and mortals dabbling in the mystical arts.

When a wealthy family’s infant goes missing without a trace, Nathaniel suspects magical involvement.  His quest for answers leads him deep into New York’s magical underworld, where even a powerful wizard will find far more than he is looking for.

Later story arcs involve Dweller terrorism, a magic-smuggling operation, and a vicious killer that targets Dwellers.  Sanders plans many more story arcs, and novels that expand on each story.

“The 1850s was a rough time for New York,” says Sanders.  “The Irish Potato Famine led to a massive influx of immigrants unlike anything that the city had ever seen.  Violence and poverty were a fact of life in some areas, like Five Points (currently Chinatown) and Corlear’s Hook (currently the Lower East Side).  Meanwhile, the city’s upper class lived a life of obscene opulence.  There were major gains in the arts, with The Hudson River School of painting, and such writers as Edgar Allen Poe, Herman Melville, and Walt Whitman.  I do my best to explore all of that, in addition to the mythology that comes with these magical creatures.

“The concept of “Watchmage” is that the immigrants brought their hopes and dreams over the ocean, including creatures of dream: Elves, Goblins, Trolls, and the like.  Some came willingly, others were dragged against their will.  Either way, they are here and it’s up the Watchmage to guide them in this New World.”

The Watchmage of Old New York is hosted at www.jukepopserials.com, where it is consistently one of the most popular serials.

About the Author

C.A. Sanders is a writer of both fiction and nonfiction. In addition to The Watchmage of Old New York, His debut novel, Song of Simon, is available from www.Damnationbooks.com and  www.Amazon.com He formerly covered music for such sites as Relix, Examiner.com, and Suite101.com.

C.A. has a Bachelor’s degree in Creative Writing from SUNY New Paltz, and a Master’s degree from the City University of New York.  Born in the Bronx during the dark decade of the 1970s, he currently lives in the New York suburbs.  He remains confident that this is the year the NY Jets win the Super Bowl…he says this every year.

Visit his website www.casanders.net

 

 

Press Release for “Song of Simon”

 

I thought that would put my press release up here.  I’m going to make a new page for Press and put it up there as well.  Feel free to leave feedback.  Any bloggers that would like to do an interview or review, let me know.  I’m pretty flexible, and will plug the hell out of it.

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Press Release Announcement: Song of Simon

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE

Contact: C.A. Sanders, casanders77@gmail.com  www.casanders.net

Debut Author C.A. Sanders Explores the Callous Use of Violence in Fantasy With Song of Simon

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Debut speculative fiction author C.A. releases his first novel, Song of Simon, a fantasy coming-of-age with a concept rarely seen in the genre.

In Song of Simon, Sanders examines the way that violence is used in fantasy, and the psychological trauma of such so often ignored in the genre.

“I am annoyed at the way authors gorge themselves on gory, splatter-house battles.  That’s all well and good, but what about the aftermath?  What about the shattered minds and souls left behind?  To counter this, I took a soft, American boy and plunged him neck deep in violence to see what comes out on the other side.”

Song of Simon is a Dark Fantasy about a suburban teenager, Simon Kale, who travels to a bloodsoaked, mysterious land, when God has been imprisoned by the priesthood.  He falls in with a renegade priestess, Ilyana, who believes herself the Messiah and Simon the key to her victory.  Through brutal encounters, death, despair, and many mistakes, Simon grows to be a man.  Will he be the hero that Ilyana believes him to be, or will he succumb to the shadows of despair that surround him?

“I worked for many years as a Special Ed teacher, dealing with children and adults that have suffered horrible abuse.  I understand the trauma that violence can cause to both a young mind and an old.  I only hope that I do it justice in Song of Simon.

About the Author

C.A. Sanders is a writer of both fiction and nonfiction. In addition to Song of Simon, he writes a popular and award winning online serial, The Watchmage of Old New York, hosted at JukepopSerials.com. He formerly covered music for such sites as Relix, Examiner.com, and Suite101.com.

C.A. has a Bachelor’s degree in Creative Writing from SUNY New Paltz, and a Master’s degree from the City University of New York.  Born in the Bronx during the dark decade of the 1970s, he currently lives in the New York suburbs.  He remains confident that this is the year the NY Jets win the Super Bowl…he says this every year.

Visit his website www.casanders.net

Buy Song of Simon at your favorite e-book store, LSI, Amazon, FictionWise, Borders, Kindle, available in digital, ebook and paperback.  Also available from Damnation Books

Wait…Now Song of Simon is really here!!

Great news! Song of Simon is good to go! You can buy it as an PDF, ePub, MS REader, MOBI Pocket, or Palm at Damnation Books http://www.damnationbooks.com/book.php?isbn=9781629290430

Or you can buy it for your Kindle here http://www.amazon.com/Song-of-Simon-ebook/dp/B00FE01BUY/ref=sr_1_1?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1380049904&sr=1-1&keywords=song+of+simon+c.a.+sanders

Print versions are soon to come, but as it is a small press (not as small as many) they will be pricey. I will autograph any print version though. to paraphrase Neil Gaiman, make every piece of art unique.

I am so excited that I might burst…and the Jets won this week too!  What a great last few days!!

Watchmage Returns!!!!

After my last story arc of Watchmage, I decided to take a break to work on the novelized version. Demand was high enough for a new Watchmage story that I came back. And so today is…

WATCHMAGE WEEK!!

Yesterday I released the first chapter of the new story arc, “The Wild Hunt.” I will release another chapter tomorrow and on Thursday. After that, I’ll go back to the old routine, a new chapter every Monday.

This new story is very personal to me, and much darker than the first two. I wrote this in the first few months after Valerie died, and it’s fairly obvious. It was painful to write, but everything was painful then. To be honest (and aren’t I always) things are still very painful.

I have other motivations as well. During my absence, Watchmage fell behind on votes. I didn’t realize it, but the end of this month is the Jukepop bi-annual prize. Whoever is in first place wins 500 Dollars!!

I am behind, but it is still within my reach with enough votes. I need help from my fans and friends though. Please vote for the new chapters. If you’ve voted, thank you. You can also share the link on facebook, twitter, or word o’ mouth. You can also leave reviews at the bottom of the serial’s page. Thank you so much.

The next post will be about Song of Simon, as we’re getting close to release date. Stay cool, friends.

IIIIIIIII Gotta Crow…

I’m currently giving “The Wild Hunt,” the next chapter in the “Watchmage” serial, a good hard edit. As I said, when I wrote this, I was still seriouly grieving. I want to cut back on some of the more painful stuff, without losing the impact of the piece. I am very excited to be finishing this up, and to be working with JukePop Serials again. I have all this ideas for short and longer stories in the Watchmage world, each one doing a bit more world building. I want to focus on lesser characters in some, and expand on the city the way that the novel does.

btw: almost done with the novel as well. As good as this serial is, the novel blows it out of the water. I can’t help but crow.

Bonus points if you get the title reference.