I don’t want to die with things left undone. I don’t want to drown in a bed, alone, without my loved ones able to say goodbye. I don’t want to die without one last kiss from Katie.




I don’t want to die with things left undone. I don’t want to drown in a bed, alone, without my loved ones able to say goodbye. I don’t want to die without one last kiss from Katie.








I noticed that these posts are sounding more hopeless. Unfortunately, that’s what it feels like in New York (and New Jersey) now. We realized that help is not coming from the federal government, at least not the Republicans, who shoot down every plea. They have no misgivings about letting us die. I would wish them all to suffer, but I can’t. No one should die alone, slowly drowning, not even with a chance to get on a ventilator, because there are none left. Even those that kill us with apathy should die in such a horrid way.
I’d rather history marks them for the monsters they are.
This entry has a lot about Jewishness in it, as I had to deal with hate speech on my Facebook page yesterday. Sadly, it was from another Jew.


I’m expecting to reach another 200 entries, if not more. If I live. New York is dying. Don’t fiddle while it burns.







I’m starting to get overwhelmed. Despair is setting in.



We’re doomed. Doooooomed…I think of War of the Worlds, where the aliens were wiped out by the common cold. A little thing like that can do so much damage.


Trump is accusing New York doctors and nurses of hoarding masks, gloves, and scrubs. Let’s do some math: A nurse in each wing deals with 20 patients in a wing. They put on a new mask and gloves each time. That’s 20/hr. X 12 hr shift = 240 a shift per nurse. Say there are 5 nurses on duty per wing. 1200 masks and gloves per wing. The hospital I used to work at had 12 wings, including ICU (it was a very small hospital) . 14,400 masks and gloves per 12 hours, or 28,800 a day. And that’s just for the nurses, not doctors or surgeons or support staff or maintenance or materials management or radiologists, etc.
There are dozens of hospitals in NYC.
Not understanding basic math hurts



Things are starting to get crazy here. I haven’t touched another human in 2 weeks. I’m an introvert, but this is a long time without human contact. I miss Katie so much.
